After spending time with the
children and listening to John and Abby Carr, our Global Orphan hosts, share about Global Orphanage, my heart
was overwhelmed and awed by God. These children have very
little and still have smiles on their faces. They allowed us to
enter their personal space with open arms. They were careful with our
possessions (cameras and sunglasses) and returned them when requested. I
didn’t see want of anything, but love and touch in their eyes.
Some of the children's stories of how God placed them exactly where they needed to be touched my heart. There were some children whose parents died in the earthquake two years ago, and other children whose parents just can't take care of them. It was like being in a whole new
world and God was letting us know that the great I AM is here, right in the middle of Haiti,
and cares. I saw God’s love in the faces of the children, the orphanage
leaders, the pastors, and the mamas. I could see our awesome God is working
around us.
I kept asking myself what is God going to show me? I was there to love the children, but with such an opportunity comes a lesson and
I didn’t want to miss it. I was jealous and hungry for God to speak
to me about who He is in me. I felt so inadequate to pray or speak
during our group devotion times. I wanted God to speak to me and give me
something to share, but I kept listening to the lie of not knowing enough, not understanding
enough, and not praying with spiritual insight.
What a list, and
what a lie.
God said look at me and trust in me. You cannot glorify
me with your mind on all your so-called shortcomings. Trust me.
I then
asked God to do whatever it took to strip me of myself and replace all that is within me with Him. He is all I need and there is nothing
inadequate about HIM. The rest of the trip, I stepped into a boldness and a kind of confidence, in God, that I'm just getting to know. I prayed with others, I loved on the kids, and I kept my eyes on God's truth instead of my lies.
I have seen how great our God is
through the eyes of small children. In Matthew 18:3 Jesus says,
"I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children,
you will never enter into the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever
humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.
And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me."
We encountered that truth that weekend. We welcomed the children into our arms, but we were the ones who were humbled.
There has been a
renewal of who God is within my spirit. I ask God to please help me put
into words what He has revealed to me and how it all came together.
What a privilege I have been given to go a different world and draw so
close to Him with a team that was so encouraging. I can’t thank God
enough for this trip and all the prayers that led to such a blessing.
I
will trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding
and in all my ways acknowledge him and he will make my paths
straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
God's Blessings,
Sandy Mayer
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